एक दर्द से हम अभी उभरे नही
दूसरा फिर से सामने आगया,
एक एक करके अनमोल लोगों का साथ हमसे छूट गया।
पहले श्री देवी तो अब स्टीफन हॉकिंग का यू अचानक चले जाना,
बॉलीवुड और विज्ञान जगत को अपने अपने हीरो को नम आखो से अलविदा करना पड़ा।
Well written angel
Happy reading readers
Yours loving warrior
मेरा वो पहला पहला प्यार है।
मेरी पहली तो नही पर हाॅ एक ताजी सी याद है,
वो कुछ और नही मेरे पहले प्यार कि शुरूआत है।
उस वक्त मैहज 14-15 साल कि छोटी बच्ची ही थी मै,
प्यार क्या है वो बस फिल्मो मे ही देखा करती थी मै ,
पर फिर भी मूझे ना जाने कैसे तूझसे इक्करार होने लगा था।
हालाकी ये तेरी -मेरी उन अन्नगीन्त मुलाकातो जैसी ही एक मुलाकात थी,
पर उस दिन शायद तेरी जरूरत मूझे कुछ जादा ही थी।
तब से तूझे मैने मेरी जिन्दगी में थोडा जादा ही मिल लिया है,
क्योकी तेरी महक मैं मेरी हर परेशानी को दूर करने का राज़ छुवा रखा है।
शायद उस वक़्त लोगो के पास टाइम काम था,
इसीलिए मैंने तुझे अपने लिए चुन लिया था।
याद है मुझे मैं कैसे तुझसे चुप चुप कर मिला करती थी,
कही और नही तुझे अपने रूम में ही छुवा कर रखा करती थी।
आज तो इस कदर बेशर्म बन चुकी हूं,
की तुझे सारे आम ही अपने लबो से मिला लिया करती हूं।
किसी को मेरी कहानी मैं कह दिलचसबी हुआ करती थी,
तू ही तो है वो जिसे मैं अपने हर राज़ बोलै करती थी।
ठंड हो या गर्मी का मूसम तुझे पकड़ने के बाद सुखोन मिलता है,
आज भी तुझे पाकर मन खुशी से झूम उठता है।
अब तो मम्मी भी बहुत बार बोल दिया करती है,
किसी और को भी देखा कर अपनाया कर,
अपने दांतों का तो धयान दिया कर ,
चॉकलेट ज़्यादा न खाया कर।
पर क्या करूँ तू है ही इतनी मिट्टी और प्यारी ,
की तुझसे दूर रहने का मन ही नही मानता है,
तुझे बिना पाए मुझे अब चैन नही आता है।
इसीलिए तुझे अब खरीदने की जगह ,
बनाने मे ज़्यादा मज़ा आता है।
Confusion and frustration of single line which strikes my mind all the time and was pinching my nevers with horified vibes
the line is…
Why I didn’t cried when someone important was leaving my small life..??
After a time I think I have finally hit my grith or you can say my thinking heights.
One unpleasent night…I ended up with answer that fits very right
so here is something I have stopped with..
just starting from my toys to my tecnological needs…
sheding my tears with loudest laughter all the tym…
from the day I started the sense of feeling ..I always felt a manly hand on my sholders to protect me even If have ever did a mischive..
I know him from last 19 years so well that i always trusted him blindly for all my dreams..
We were dating each other from long back I remeber the date 20.4.1998
Yes its such a long journey …I had shared with him who is someone important i belive
In contarary of dating each other.. I was never jealous or pissed off.. even knowing the fact he loved 3 other girls excluding me…
that bonding between me n him was the key of our love journey
never I ever asked him whom he love the most nor he ever asked me to prove my love for him..
from last 7 years right from 2011 he was getting ill but was never weak
that is why I never thought of such a disaster in this sweetest love live..
such thougths of loosing him so soon may have arrived if doctors would have defined..
doctors always said he is all fine but not his working time..
yes because he used to work hours n hours n hours to give us a pleasure full life…
his workimg hours was moring 4 to 12 at midnight..
You all only say… was it right..??
no! I know but no one could justify this in front of him…
years passed… my someone important was just beside..
2016… I left my hometown for further studies
and opted the same subject in which he was specialised…
as soon as reaching my new place I got engaged with some not same but similar monkeys and butterfiles …
I think those 11 months was in so hurry that they didn’t allowed me to spend time with him…
no but this isn’t true…
those fasinating days became my new feeds and unknowingly pages of that lovers dairy was left blank behind…
15 days later I was standing on a white polished hospital’s floor
And he was lying on the bed with 2 to 3 machines attached to him
producing the irritating beeping sound….
he was 30 years ahead of my age but the charm of his face even today stops at my old days..
but that his face was looking like a jet leg..
still that smile… yes that smile was the thing I could ever had.
for some time we were just staring to each other… for rest I got scared of seeing those scarce left by the therapy cuts n bruises..
my father had beared it alone all the time..
as we started talking…doctor cum uncle walked inside with some paper in his side..
see it was difficult for some one read that paper who was hoping for his recovery..
I walked out of the room over that unpleasant coridoor
I sat on the chair arranged in a row..
with a thougth preoccupied that how he was fighting with those painful theropy needels
how he was doing….was he cring or was he just letting it go???
I could never imagine…
but that images i remember… my first memories with him from hell
It was my fault why i had left mine love story incomplete just to start some new stories.
Inspite of seeing all activities I was not thinking that the air we both are breathing could lead to end of the story..
yes I do cry
but this time defination of crying was something else…
the suddeen separation and no last touch of my father left me with happiness without laughter and sadness without tears..
may be I saw him being so strong….made me tough that 19 year girl is holding her self with all her left strength..
May be his teachings are working today that never cry until then you don’t fight..
never feel sad until you dont survive the worst..
May be he is still beside and holding my hand that just I cant feel thats why my tears don’t fall…
Yes that someone imp is my dad….
Best thing about teachings is it can work even when teacher stops working angel….But only if you want it to work.
And you never left the love diary incomplete…You just took a break with his permission and trust me it was his greatest pleasure to see you flying in new colors with new butterflies…Infact I am happy that he was lucky enough to witness you like that…He was proud of every moment you had spent there…He used to enjoy seeing your pictures and videos and say me after watching neha,It feels like I am in my college days…He was extremely happy to afford you something,he never got an opportunity of ….He was living his college life by seeing you there….So that clearly means your story never had any breaks…And if you can trust me more…This story has now become eternal and will see no more breaks in future.
As you said he is still holding you and will hold you forever
Yours loving warrior
India being a multi religious country follows many different rules, beliefs, culture, scriptures etc. For example Hindu’s goes to temple, have beliefs in lord Shiv, lord Krishna etc, and follow the rules of holy books like Ramanaya, Mahabharata etc. similarly Sikh’s goes to Gurudwara, have beliefs in Gurunanak Sahab, Gurugovid Singh etc, and follows the rules of holy book Gurugranth , Muslim’s goes to mosques and follows the rules of holy book Quran, Christian’s goes to church, have beliefs in Jesus and follows the rules of Bible. But besides of being many differences there is one common belief in all realigns is to follow the perching of Guru or Teacher. From ancient times guru is given a special and important place in anyone’s life it is because guru is light, guru is wisdom who makes the complicated life wonderful with his or her teachings. There is a saying in Hindi which describes the importance of guru directly “Guru Govind do khade kake lagu paye , Guru balihari apki Govind diyo bataye”.
To mark tribute and be thankful towards teachers India recognizes 5th September as teachers day. The day is commemorated as the birthday of Late Dr. S. Radhakrishnan who was a great teacher who has contributed a lot towards education and he was the 2nd president of independent India. Words of Dr. Radhakrishnan “instead of celebrating my birthday separately, it would be my privilege if 5th September is observed as Teacher’s day” brought the concept of teachers day celebration since 1962 when some of his students came up to celebrate his birthday. The day to honor teachers for their contribution arose not before mid 20th century. But the question arises that is before 20th century no day was meant for honoring teachers or guru? No it’s not so.
India from early times has always witnessed great spiritual guru as well as academic guru and they have always been admired and honored. Our ancestors like us have not failed to mark a day specially meant for gurus. Guru Purnima is age old fest day which comes in month of Ashadha(June or July) to pay tribute to gurus. Traditionally the day was celebrated by Buddhists in respect to Lord Buddha who gave his first lecture at Sarnath, Uttar Pradesh on this day, in mythologies the day is recoganised as the occasion when Lord Shiva became the first guru as he began to spread yoga to Saptarishis but the authentic basis of reorganization of the day is in honor of the great Saint Ved Vyasa who is the author of Mahabharata and wrote 4 Vedas. It is said that saint was not only born on this day but also have started writing the Brahma Sutras. For that reason the day is also said as Vyasa Purnima and the day was accepted as Guru Shishiya tradition.
Historical evidences and believes are of no use till it is being applied in the busy scenario. There are people who keep these evidences alive through some celebrations but unfortunately there are many who laugh at such celebration with the saying “why to devote one day when we can devote it daily”. Simple answer to their argument is that we need such days to bring out some time for them from our busy life or the celebration is required to express our gratitude without fail. Gratitude is a quality embedded in us that we often forget to express and may be therefore the special occasions are made so that we can express our feeling entirely to the one.
Happy guru purnima neha.
A good read for today✌
And I loved the last para which highlights the relevance of showing gratitude.
Keep scribbling angel
Yours loving warrior
Rath yatra or Chariot festival is the most awaited festival among the innumerable festivals illustrious around the globe. The festival is also identified through these names such as Festival of Chariot, Car Festival, Dashavatar Yatra, Gundicha Jatra, Navadina Yatra and Ghosa Jatra. These auspicious festival Rath Yatra is associated with the lord Jagannath (avatar of lord Vishnu) which is celebrated every year in Ashad Shukla Dwitiya (2nd day of the bright fortnight of the month of Ashad) this year the date is set to be commence on 25th of June and the fest is celebrated for about 9 days therefore the end day ceremony falls to be on 3rd of July.
The festival defines the formal procedure of visiting maternal home in every summer holidays as it is believed that lord Jagannath with is elder brother Balabhadra and his sister Subhadra annually visits their maternal aunt’s home and their return falls after 9 days. The procession starts from Jagannath Temple to Gundicha Temple or Masi Maa Temple near Balagandi Chaka, Puri both temples are 3km away but happiness of devotees clubbed with prayers and drums take few hours to reach. The procession carries the wooden idols of the three siblings i.e. lord Jagannath his elder brother Balabhadra and his sister Subhadra. The three idols are placed to their respective chariots which are accompanied with chants (mantra or bhajan), conches (shankha) and drums along with millions of devotees.
The main highlights of the procession are the three chariots. The preparation of these chariots starts from the day of Akshay Trithiya. All three chariots are named differently and have different number of wheels along with difference in their heights. Nadighosa Lord Jagannath’s chariot is 45.6feet in height and has 18 wheels attached, Taladhvaja Lord Balabhadra’s chariote is 45feet in height and has 16 wheels attached and Devadalana Goddess Subahdra’s chariot is 44.6feet in height and has 14 wheels attached to it. The three huge chariots are not pulled by horses nor by any other animal but are dragged by the hands of devotees itself. The chariots are connected with the long ropes which are 50meter long in length. It is believed that pulling the rope is nourishing the good karma and brings subtraction to their bad deeds. Procession is has Lord Balabhadra’s chariot at the fist followed by Goddess Subhadra’s chariot and at last Lord Jagannath’s chariot is placed.
Before the commencement of Ratha Yatra there are series of celebrations or rituals performed. In the very first ritual the three idols are taken for the bathing ceremony on a full moon day, the bathing festival is known as Snana Purnima. 109 buckets of water are drawn from temples well are poured over the idols. After the Snana fest the idols are kept away from public view for about fifteen days as it is believed that idols are affected with fever. During this period the Pujaries of the temples are also said to be ill and recommended to eat fruits and diet foods only. This ritual of not letting public to view the Lords and Goddess idols is known as Anasara. After these fifteen days idols are been seen Navayauvana Vesha (renewed vesha) on the new moon day in the month of Ashadha. And finally on the second new moon day comes the occasion of Rath Yatra. On the day of procession the famous and main ritual is performed which is known as Chhera Pahara. This ritual is performed by the royal successor of Orissa. In this ritual the idols are brought from the temple by the king and placed on the chariot before placing the idols it is the king who sweeps the chariot with broom that has golden handle to it. He late has to decorate the chariot with fresh flowers. The ground where the chariot will move through is also being cleaned by him. This ritual directly points out to the saying that all humans either rich or poor are equal in the eyes of lord.
As Chhattisgarh being a neighboring state of Orissa also witness the enthusiasm and happiness of this positive festival. Chhattisgarh also enjoys the Rath Yatra with same essence and rituals as the population has loads of Oriya people living here. Even the Governor and the Chief Minister of Chhattisgarh also take part in the celebration.
Good piece of information neha
Happy reading readers.
Yours loving warrior
Saint Sri Sri Ravi Shankar says, “Yoga is not just exercise and asanas. It is the combination of emotional and spiritual altitude with a touch of spiritual element, which gives you a glimpse of something beyond all imaginations.” Scientists say that yoga covers the complete sense of way of living. Yoga is a physical activity which teaches all twists, turns and stretches in accordance of exhaling and inhaling. The most famous quote of Bhagawat Geeta explains the actual significance of yoga, “Yoga is the journey of self, through the self, to the self”. Yoga is termed as a superlative remedy to bring harmony and bliss in oneself. Yoga is a bustle which is present in India from prehistoric times. Holy books like Bhagawat geeta, Mahabharta, Ramayana etc have traces of yoga’s elucidation and writings.
Surya Namaskar or Sun Salutation is always been said as a general and broad yoga move which includes asana, pranayama, mantra and meditative awareness. It name itself suggests the meaning d the yoga pose. Surya Namaskar is an ancient physical practice of showing respect and gratitude towards the sun which makes surveillance possible on earth. The bodies physical moment, spiritual concept and solar plexus is controlled, governed and also been boosted by the practice of Surya Namaskar. Solar plexus are heavenly lights or heavenly impulses which are located just behind the navel area of a human body which is directly connected with sun. Ancient saints or rishis says that every part of a human body is ruled by different Devas ( solar plexus) due to which they recommends to have a daily practice of Surya Namaskra to have every body part to have proper functioning.
Surya Namaskar is a lay out of 12 yoga poses or postures which are asked to perform during sun rise. Surya Namaskar benefits all parts of body from head to toe due to which daily practice is recommended. As it comprises of 12 posses which effects whole body therefore it also said Surya Namaskar only can be acknowledged in place of all different yoga techniques. Surya Namaskar has abundant benefits as it improves blood circulation which helps heart, liver, stomach, intestine etc works properly and keeps a person disease free. Practicing Surya Namaskar in different time and different pace of practicing provides different benefits. Performing it in morning refreshes the body and the mind which makes a person ready to take all tasks of the day, if performed in afternoon it energizes the body instantly and if performed in evening helps a person to relax. Performing Surya Namaskar in slow pace helps to make the body flexible, if performed in medium pace helps to maintain the quality the muscles and if performed in fast pace it becomes an excellent cardiovascular exercises and helps in losing wait. Looking to its list of benefits this years old technique should be practiced daily to make this busy modern lifestyle to be a healthy lifestyle.
Happy international yoga day readers!
Stay healthy take care of yourselves.
Try Indian heritage called yoga
Keep scribbling neha
Yours loving warrior
Many times in life there comes a situation were you have two roads and both the roads are correct at their respective ways but are wrong at others perspective. This is the most irritative and confusing part were you don’t know to choose which path.
This is the actual time were you have to prove your self and take desicion which would benifit your future. Benefiting your future doesn’t means to lose your present with an awkward situation. Yes ofcourse if we think for future it would oppositly or inversly affect to the present.
I would say life is like an mathemetics exam were you know what two do but you are confused with the answer.
Or in simplest way what is life ? It is the equation where you need to add your happines ,subtract the situation or condiotion which makes you sad, multiply the situation or condition which brighten your future and divide the condition which makes you helpless. Yes , it would be wrong while totally comparing life with maths equations because for eqations always there exists a solution but in case of life its opposite there are conditions were you don’t have appropriate solution and you fail to pass the exam.
Exams of school after 1 or 2 attempts get cleared but there are some life exams which don’t let you pass that chapter and you have close and move forward closing chapter with a red mark of fail. These is the time were you need to be strong enough to face that mark. Obviously the mark would break you in many pecies but there exists an other path which let you get not fully heeled but yes to make you little strong for the paths is your future.
At last just a suggestion, to protect your present which will one day turn to be your future don’t keep aside you future insight.We study to brigten our future, we keep contact to doctors for healthy future, we become social for happy future then why to go for the path which do not looks towards future happiness.
Its better to cry today then to get encoutered with a broken future.
As broken Vas is not used for holding water similarly a broken person won’t be able to live a happy life.
Don’t remain broken, become strong!
~N_Angel (Neha Asawa)
for your first paragraph..
Yes life is maths and not that simple addition substraction maths…its tough algebra vala maths where solutions you will get but you will require a variable called x..
This x is your faith
This x is your God.
He will help him in all those tough problems.Learn to take him along with your all decisions and trust me you will never be helpless and I am advicing this after trying this.
for Paragrah 2
Red marks are necessary like that red bricks behind perfectly painted wall,you correctly said they make you strong.
for para 3 your suggestion is correct absolutely.
very late I learnt this..read my post “to confusing souls”.
However painful it is now..yes, your action should be only alligned to the future goals..only then you will really reach future goal and happiness or else you will land in an unplanned unstable future.
A honest scribble by you makes me more happy as it helps me read your heart.
Keep scribbling Neha!
Happy reading readers
Yours loving warrior